Waking this morning in a different bed, different room, even the smells are all different. This is not my home, my shower, my towels, all belongs to someone else.
I'm so thankful for my lovely daughter. she has had her own problems and doesn't need to be burden with mine, she is so sweet caring and I know that she Love's me so.
She just purchased her 1st home and now has her mother moving into one of her guess rooms and bath. Not the house warming present she was hoping for I'm sure.
I try not to show my emotions in front of her. I mostly keep it in my room and not let her see me upset. What's so odd is, I'm really not that upset. I'm not heartless, just tired. Tired of trying to keep something together that is not worth keeping. This has been coming for a while and I've known that, but what I can't understand is why I haven't try to fix it when it first started. I guess it wasn't worth it or I may have just wanted this all along.
"I don't need a father" I remember telling him many times. He thought I needed to be controlled and who wants that? I know I certainly didn't. I can't explain this, I can't even make sense of it all. I'm just going thru the motions for now.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
All In Time
Funny, that since your piece of shit son decides to get arrested and will be gone for quite some time, your ex has now decided to be "mother of the year" and call you on a regular basis to keep you updated on his court dates and progression................
In 17 years you have put me thru some bullshit, but whenever she decides to play her games with you, you are always ready to be her pawn and now, out of all this you've mentioned divorce.............
It all seems to be done at a time that is convenient for you and her...................
I can tell she's loving this and you been talking outside of our home which use to be taboo, in your eyes, but not if it's you....................
I'm not the young girl you met 17 years ago, I'm A LOT more smarter then you think. I will plan my next move and will let you think your winning, but really I'm planning my escape. You've taken the checkbook, all of my cards and think I'm going to lay down and take it. I will be opening my own account in the next few days along with looking for a place to move.
Like I said, I'm not that little girl you met 17 years ago.....................
In 17 years you have put me thru some bullshit, but whenever she decides to play her games with you, you are always ready to be her pawn and now, out of all this you've mentioned divorce.............
It all seems to be done at a time that is convenient for you and her...................
I can tell she's loving this and you been talking outside of our home which use to be taboo, in your eyes, but not if it's you....................
I'm not the young girl you met 17 years ago, I'm A LOT more smarter then you think. I will plan my next move and will let you think your winning, but really I'm planning my escape. You've taken the checkbook, all of my cards and think I'm going to lay down and take it. I will be opening my own account in the next few days along with looking for a place to move.
Like I said, I'm not that little girl you met 17 years ago.....................
Thursday, October 1, 2009
What the F*@k
You know WTF?
What is it with people lately?
They almost act as if they don't know how to treat each other. I went into the store to pick up some grocery.....i.e. grub. As I walked into the store, these two women were fighting. I mean getting down, smack'in gobbing onto each other, the whole shit. I had to step out of the way to keep from getting a melon thrown into my melon.
As I stood there, it appeared that the whole thing was over a child who wanted a current magazine comic and the other lady or should I say "wrestler" wanted the same for her son whom was not present. So they went to "fist to cuffs". I had to stand to watch like a total" geek" that I am, but yet totally enjoyed. They went at it. Now I mean blood was involed and blacken eyes, hair pullen and cussin' the whole way. The child who was holdin' the said "comic" stood there the whole time egg'd his mother on......saying "beat that bitch down Mama". Ummmmm Hello?
I finally mentioned "should someone call the police", 50, the poo poo, um someone who will break up this craziness! Now, listen I have seen some crazy fights, but this shit was straight nuts!
When they finally got them broke up, both women (or whatever they should be called) where bloody and one even had a broken nose or at least that is what she was complaining about. All over a damm comic? I mean really.............If it was at least a pair of Steve Madden's or a great purse, well then I can relate, but this shit was NUTZZZZZ!
Let's keep our perspective ladies, even though I toally enjoyed the show. I should mention that the one lady kicked the total dog shit out of the other women and she had to be taken by security to the hospital. Goes to show that you don't mess with a mama's baby. Yea rah!
What is it with people lately?
They almost act as if they don't know how to treat each other. I went into the store to pick up some grocery.....i.e. grub. As I walked into the store, these two women were fighting. I mean getting down, smack'in gobbing onto each other, the whole shit. I had to step out of the way to keep from getting a melon thrown into my melon.
As I stood there, it appeared that the whole thing was over a child who wanted a current magazine comic and the other lady or should I say "wrestler" wanted the same for her son whom was not present. So they went to "fist to cuffs". I had to stand to watch like a total" geek" that I am, but yet totally enjoyed. They went at it. Now I mean blood was involed and blacken eyes, hair pullen and cussin' the whole way. The child who was holdin' the said "comic" stood there the whole time egg'd his mother on......saying "beat that bitch down Mama". Ummmmm Hello?
I finally mentioned "should someone call the police", 50, the poo poo, um someone who will break up this craziness! Now, listen I have seen some crazy fights, but this shit was straight nuts!
When they finally got them broke up, both women (or whatever they should be called) where bloody and one even had a broken nose or at least that is what she was complaining about. All over a damm comic? I mean really.............If it was at least a pair of Steve Madden's or a great purse, well then I can relate, but this shit was NUTZZZZZ!
Let's keep our perspective ladies, even though I toally enjoyed the show. I should mention that the one lady kicked the total dog shit out of the other women and she had to be taken by security to the hospital. Goes to show that you don't mess with a mama's baby. Yea rah!
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